I wanted to be pretty,
I wanted to be smart.
But I always seem to realise,
Im just a stupid tart.
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Being who I am,
sometimes puts me down.
I always get my hopes up,
but end up as a clown.
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I plan to end my life soon,
I hope it will be quick.
I can't stand myself,
being a b*tch makes me sick.
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Often I get lonely,
angry, sad and scared.
That's when I cut myself,
and the pain is no longer feared.
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I struggle with my studies,
I argue with my mum.
When I go to school,
I just feel so dumb!
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How some bad words and names,
can badly change my mood.
They really do affect me,
so I turn to food.
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I eat and eat and eat,
I am getting really fat.
I just can't stop eating,
I am my family's doormat.
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Raising her voice,
my mother gets mad.
She brings back memories,
that make me feel so bad.
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When the knife goes deep,
deep within my wrist.
The blood rushes through,
I won't be sadly missed.
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I cry and think of all,
the mistakes I've made.
I hope my friends forgive me,
and just let me fade.
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The pain really stings,
makes me feel better.
I think of all my faults,
I'm gonna write a letter.
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In the letter I will write,
all my feelings and my pain.
My dreams and hopes,
that make me so lame.
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You'll see all my darkest thoughts,
you will find out the bad.
You will learn to hate me,
for being oh so sad.
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To all those people,
who tried and failed.
I'm sorry please forgive me,
You'll all get the letter I mailed.
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I'm sorry please forgive me,
I love you, I just can't live life.
This ain't me,
I'm dying by a knife
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By ~*Cubone*~