I remember


I remember the way he looked at me

I remember the way he touched me

I remember the sound of his breathing

I remember the wetness of his kisses

I remember the smell of his sweat


but worst of all I can remember the way

he went inside

held me down

and forced his way


I didn't know that it was wrong

I didn't know what it was

I didn't fight

coz I didn't have a clue


just lied down and hoped

hoped it would be over soon

but it newer stopped


But even though I didn't know what it was

I knew it wasn't normal

I could feel it somehow

some kind of a natural indistinct

telling me it wasn't right


I was afraid

I was alone

and it hunts me

till this day


the feeling of him

of my stupidity

of being a woman too soon

newer really felt like I was one

with the other kids

coz they where free

free from the frozen steer from his eyes


free from the look

the touch

the kisses

the smell

the sound of his breathing


his moaning

hi laughing

his smiling

his words

his ewerrything